Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Rindu ....

Rindu
Rindu yang tak terperi
Pada blog yang semakin dipinggiri
Ini lah akibat masa tidak berjaya dikuasai
Atau ... disebabkan ketamakan diri

Niat dihati nak bersajak ... tapi tak sempat nak perah otak untuk mengarang. Sebabnya ... mengejar masa. Ahh... alasan yang tak menasabah .... sebenarnya kita sering kesuntukan masa mungkin kerana kelalaian diri dalam menguasai masa atau kita terlalu tamak untuk melakukan segalanya ... kena fikir lagi ... tapi again, tak sempat nak fikir yang mana satu betul sebab tak ada masa. Again, alasan yang tak menasabah.

Tapi .... yang tak tipu, adalah rasa rindu ini untuk mencoretkan bait-bait ayat di ruang ini. Bagaikan ada satu keseronokan apabila meluahkan segalanya di sini. Tak kisahlah samada ada yang membaca atau pun tidak, yang penting MENULIS.

Berhari-hari (sejak balik dari cuti ni la ...) aku 'log on' ke blogspot ni, niat di hati nak tulis sesuatu, tapi jeling je pada mimize window kat bawah tu sebab tak sempat nak mengarang.

Hari ni, bila jam dah menunjukkan 5.05pm, tanpa melengahkan masa, aku pun terus ke sini untuk mencoret bait-bait ayat sekadar melepaskan kerinduan pada blog yang tidak bersuara ini. Kenapa 5.05pm? Yelah ... after office hour, konon-konon tak la rasa guilty sangat berblog ...tapi opsss ... is my 8 hours work for today fulfilled?????? Arghh ..... got to continue my work .... bye bye ta tat tit tit tut tut ............

Will come again, has a lot to write because there are so many happenings lately.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Cuti Cuti Cuti

Yes, it's now the semester break. Really a break. Kids were with their grandmas for two weeks almost two weeks. 7 days in Kg Pertama, 5 days in Sg Petani. It's the best time to reunite them and get closer to their grand parents, and cousins too. They enjoyed their stay, but they missed home. How do I know that they missed home, everyone dissappear to their own area and favorite stuff the minute we reached home.

While the kids gone, I fulfilled my time with reading articles. Tapi tak ada idea nak mengarang. NExt, followed husband to a stay at the Le Meridien KL, for his meeting (tumpang sekaki je...). The best part was, while he was busy withthe meeting, I busied myself with some 'lone ranger' shopping at Jalan TAR and spend most of my time in SOGO. (Terasa macam zaman bujang dolu2 le pulak..... I guess we need that time to ourself, sometime). Night, wandering at MidValley with hubby, followed by wandering in KLCC the following night. WOW! bestnya ............

However, Saturday, 5th Dec, hubby got a call from neighbours about the demise of our x-neighbour, Rosli, K.Su's husband, who died suddenly at a restaurant in Malacca. He was only 47 years old. Subhanallah ... as promised ... ajal tidak akan berganjak walau sesaat. It was a sudden death, really a shocked to K.Su. With the news, we need to check-out early Sunday morning as hubby is the 'tukang mandi jenazah' - fardhu kifayah. I was there, attended the funeral service. Poor K.Su, she fainted few times. Ini ujian Allah yang perlu dilalui oleh setiap insan. I do not want to imagine if it happens to me.

Thursday, 1oth December, its a 'balik kg' cum Central Spectrum Family Day in Penang. We stayed at the Bayview Resort. The greatest moment was to be on the jet-ski with my husband. It's a FANTASTIC experience. Will do it again.

This weekend, will be in CAmeron Highland with Hj Azmi's family. And will be concluding the 2009 with another visit to Avillion. Catch up later ..............

Nak balik tengok bola Live, Msia vs Vietnam, in the Sea Games..... aku ni ada la sikit2 jiwa bola. hihihi

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Sabar dan Sakit

It has been quite some time from my last posting. Urgh..... dozens of things happened. Too busy with classes, grading test papers (which complete only after the final exam!), fell sick and admitted to a medical center, post fever + fatigue due to confirmed thalassemic trait reaction, grading exam papers, students final year project, and, and ....... to list all, it will be an endless list.

Yes, I fell sick (fever actually) and was admitted to a medical Center in Shah Alam for six days. Actually it began on Saturday (31st October), I started to feel chilled while coaching my kids doing revision for their year end exam. I took PCM, and was Ok. But when night came, the fever recur and I was trembling, shaking very badly, I felt cold, even the thickest blanket cannot make the cold dissapear. My husband had to sacrifice by turning off the aircond and the fan, but I was still trembling. Early in the morning, I was Ok. When mak called from Abang Man's house telling that she's stopping by at my house for lunch before proceeding back to kampung, I pull the strength to cook for them (sempat jugak buat nasi ikan dan dalca, kerabu tomato, ikan cencaru belah belakang and salad, hmmm....not bad for a sick person). That night my fever worsen. To make the story short, got MC on Monday, and the condition was deteriorating. I started to vomit and lay flat, shaking and shivering from time to time. At about 10am, my husband called from the office telling that he's coming back to send me to the hospital. I was relieved. I wanted to go to the clinic but I just couldn't drive as I was shaking and shivering. Initially I thought of asking any of my colleagues to take me to the clinic, but alhamdulillah, my husband was coming back.

At the hospital, doctor advised to be admitted, which I readily agree as I was soooo tired. There I was for 6 days. Followed by another 4 days of MC, I was away from the office for 2 weeks!!!! (just imagine the amount of work that is waiting for me). And now, Alhamdulillah, after four weeks, i am myself again, despite some giddiness at times.

Quoting from a chapter of a book titled "Penenang Jiwa: Pengubatan dan Rawatan" by Imam Al-Ghazali, translated by Mukashafah Al-Qulub (a nickname, I guest?):

"Barangsiapa ingin selamat daripada azab Allah, mendapatkan pahala dan rahmatNya dan masuk syurgaNya, hendaklah dia menahan nafsu daripada segala keinginan dunia, disamping sabar atas segala kesulitan dan musibahnya. Allah menyukai orang-orang yang sabar." (ms 11)

and a Hadis, Rasulallah bersabda,

"Allah telah berkata, barangsiapa yang ditimpa bencana, lalu dia mohon perlindungan daripadaKu, pasti Aku memberinya sebelum dia meminta. Dan barangsiapa ditimpa bencana, lalu dia meminta perlindungan kepada makhluk, pasti Ku tutup semua pintu langit bagiNya." (ms 11)

and another Hadis, Rasullallah bersabda,

"Barangsiapa sakit semalam, dia sabar dan reda kepada Allah, maka bersih daripada dosa bagaikan ketika dia lahir dari perut ibunya. Jika engkau sakit, jangan segera meminta sembuh." (ms 11).

Aku redha dengan ujian Allah yang kecil ini setelah diberikanNya nikmat kesihatan yang begitu panjang sehingga kita hampir lupa untuk bersyukur kepadaNya. Ampunilah hambaMu ini, Ya Allah, Ya Rabbal 'alamin.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Another visit to the hospital

Yes, yesterday we (my husband & me) made another visit to a hospital, this time it is Hospital Serdang. Who did I visit? My own big brother, Hj Azman, who recently celeberated his 48th birthday on 15th October, (2 days before my dear sister, Hjh Mahiran, who celeberated her 46th birthday).

The text message came at about 3am, when I was deep asleep. I did not realize it until 9am, while getting ready to go to the office. The message reads like this,

"Azman masuk hospital serdang sbb sakit dada kiri - emergency ward pde pukul 3am lbh."

I was shocked. However, i always know that he has heart problem, as he once failed the stress test. He also had missed an appointment with IJN for further check-up. He had this attitude of would not care much for his health. He normally resorts to taking alternative medication or herbs rather than going to the doctor. And .... he was ... oppppsss... IS a SMOKER, despite whatever that Mak said to him. He just could not leave THAT habit.

I called his number for further clarification. K.Rose (his wife, my sis-in-law), answered. Yes, he was already admitted for close observation at Cardiac High Dependency Ward (CHDW) of Hospital Serdang for a mild heart attack. I called my husband, and we agreed to visit him in the evening (therefore, my husband need to leave his office early ---orang Pulau Indah lah katakan .... nun ....... di seberang laut). I called Abang (my eldest brother) if he knows about this, 'No' was the short answer. We decided to inform our parents later in the evening. Faqrudin (my youngest brother) was the first to see Abang Man. He was there early in the morning at about 5am, when K.Rose called him to help her to stay with Abg Man at the hospital as K.Rose has to go back to look after the kids.

When we see Abg Man in the evening, he was sleeping. When he woke up, he put a smile and was saying that this is just a small matter, no big fuss, and blaming K.Rose for alerting everbody. It was him, ego as always. Whatever it is, he is still my big brother whom I respect and the bond will always be there. Despite all the saying of feeling better, we can see that he is in pain, with every breath that he takes. And today, doctors will be performing COROS (a medical prodedure) on him to see the condition of the heart and the blockage. Then, doc will decide whether a stenting (balloon) procedure or a by-pass is required. I pray to Allah to give him good health and recover ASAP.

May Allah bless my brother with good health so that he could perform his duty to Allah as a caliph on this world. Amin.

It's a good reminder for us too, to take good care of the body and soul that Allah has borrowed us with so that we could lead a happy life on the world and preparing for the hereafter.





Friday, October 16, 2009

Noktah Kehidupan .... Siri 2

If you read my earlier posting about 'Noktah Kehidupan', this is the continuation of that. Remember, I visited two friends at the HTAR, one passed away Monday, 5th October, the other one passed away yesterday, leaving behind 3 kids aged between 5 - 10 years old. Innalillahi wainna ilahi rajiun.

"Semoga Allah tempatkan Noraini bersama-sama orang yang beriman, diterima amal ibadahnya dan memperoleh ganjaran atas kesabaran dan redhanya menghadapi ujianMu dalam menanggung kesakitan itu. Amin."

It was at about 9 last night, while my husband and I at Seng Heng browsing few things that attracted us when my husband received a text message on his mobile about the demise of Noraini, Mat Zin's wife. It was expected, just a matter of time as her condition is worsening, deteriorating rapidly from the time we visited her last Ramadhan. I can still remember her saying to me, in between tears, that she did not expect to survive the chemo this time round. Her tears ran down the cheek as she said this, she quickly wiped it dry and try to put a smile on her face, trying to hide her feeling. I was lost for words but tried my best to console her and encourage her to keep on fighting .. but Allah knows best.

According to Zin, it was at about 6.00pm yesterday when she became very weak, complaining a pain in the chest. According to Zin again, she had showed some sign that she's living the world beginning that afternoon. She wanted someone to be at her side all the time, not to leave her alone. When noticed Zin looking at her, she whispered something to Zin with her husky voice as her vocal chord is partly damage due to thyroid and the cancerous cell. And her words that touched us was, "Kenapa pandang saya macam tu? Dah ada tanda-tanda ke?", as if she knows that Izrail is already at her side. Ahhhg .......

After Maghrib, her breathing became faster, according to Zin, the kids were curious, they were wondering what is happening to their mother??? (I cannot imagine). And at about 7.45pm, peacefully, she left the world, the husband and the kids behind. Leaving behind the suffering as well, as the cancerous cell mercilessly attack one part of her body and organ after another. It was an active cancer, as it spread very fast. After her first removal of one her breast, she was up and about for about 6 months. She said, it was a new life for her then. But come this March, the cancer attacks again, and this time she hasn't got the time to fight as it spreads very fast. From the thyroid, to lungs and the blood cells ....

Ya Allah, ujian yang kau timpakan ke atas rakan ini mengingatkan aku betapa aku ini, Hamba yang lalai, tidak mensyukuri nikmatMu, nikmat kesihatan dan kesenangan ini tidak ku gunakan untuk menghambakan diri padaMu. Ampunilah aku Ya Allah. Amin ...


Friday, October 9, 2009

Telah di takdirkan .....

This morning, while browsing the UiTM Staff portal (viewing to see if the PTK results is out), I stopped by at MY Personal Info and Academic's Achievement, and found this:

1. 15-08-2009 DOKTOR FALSAFAH (SAINS MAKLUMAT) UNIVERSITI KEBANGSAAN MALAYSIA
2. 19-02-2000 MASTER SAINS (SAINS KOMPUTER) UNIV. PUTRA MALAYSIA, SERDANG
3. 10-08-1991 S/MUDA SAINS (KEP) SAINS KOMPUTER UNIV. KEBANGSAAN MALAYSIA,BANGI


1991 - 2000 - 2009 ......What can you see from this? I did not realized it before. Not until today. Well, Allah has nicely planned for me to get a degree after every 10 years. My colleague once said to me after my viva, "When we are going to get our PhD is already written in the Loh Mahfudz, therefore, when the right time comes, everything becomes so easy for you and the success is yours". BUT, "No pain, No Gain".... that is also what Allah has promised us.

Each of us must work, must put an effort, in order to get something, followed by doa' and tawakkal. The last part is to redha (accept) with what has been written for us --- that is to belief in the qadha' and qadar'. I always belief, whatever that happens to me, good or bad, there's a reason behind it and Allah knows best, and there's hikmah for each.

I would like to relay a story told to me by Datin Dr Noor Habibah (while we were waiting for the judge to come to our booth during the recent PECIPTA competition at KLCC). The story goes like this ... (btw, she got this story from an Ustaz in a morning talk show on TV):

A King peeled an apple, but accidently cut-off his finger. He was sad with what had happen to him. His advisor told him not to be sad, as there must be a hikmah for what had happen. The King was furious with the advisor's answer and threw him into the prison.

One day, regretting putting his advisor into the prison, the king visited the advisor and plan to release him from the prison. "O Mr Advisor, I am so sorry for putting you into the cell.", say the King. "It's Ok my King, as I belief that there is a hikmah for this," replied the advisor. Furious with the answer, he sentenced the advisor to a lifetime imprisonment.

One day, the King and his troop when into the jungle to hunt. On their way back to the castle with animals that they hunt, they were atacked by a group of cannibals (man eating people). The cannibals are looking for a perfect man to be sacrificed to their so called 'god'. They thought the King was the best candidate as he looks perfect and healthy. A close observation on him made the cannibals changed their mind as the King loses a finger which make him imperfect. So the cannibals release the King and start looking for the next most perfect man.

The King was happy and hurried home to see his Advisor. "O Advisor! You are correct when you said that cutting-off a finger has a hikmah behind it as the cannibals did not want me for their sacrifice. I'm released. I'm grateful. Now, I am really sorry for putting you behind bars.", said the King. "O My King, It's Ok. I can see there's a hikmah when you put me behind bars.", replied the Advisor. The King was curious, "How come?", he asked. "Well, as an advisor, I must always be at your side. Therefore, if you are caught by the cannibal, I'm sure I'll be caught by the cannibals too, if I am not behind bars now.", explained the Advisor. "So?", the King becomes more excited. "So, when the cannibals release you because you're not perfect as you lost a finger, they will start looking for the next closest to you and who are perfect. I am closest to you and I am perfect. If I am not here, I am sure the cannibals will pick me as their new sacrifice. Therefore, I am grateful to be locked up in the prison and did not go hunting with you because the cannibals cannot get me. And now, I am safe. That is HIKMAH!", the Advisor finished his lengthy explanation.

Now, the King understands the meaning of hikmah that has been mentioned by the Advisor.


In other word, as a Muslim, that is our Sixth Principle, to Belief in Qadha' and Qadr'. We must accept what Allah has designed for us, and always be grateful for it, for there must be a HIKMAH behind it.





Monday, October 5, 2009

Nokhtah Kehidupan ....

Last Saturday, despite our busy schedule to attend to Raya invitations, attending to visitors to our house, we managed to visit 2 critically illed people at the Tengku Ampuan Rahimah Hospital. K.Anum (50 years old) my neighbour was admitted to the ICU for gangren in her intestine. The illness is detected too late that leads to virus contaminating her blood. The other one was Md Zin's wife, admitted for chemothraphy on her cancerous cell at the neck. The neck was swollen as if a volcano is going to erupt. Passing by the beds with patients with all sorts of sickness and illness was a very eye and mind opening and heart remembering to how grateful we are to be bestowed with good health. Syukur, alhamdulillah.

Ya Allah, you have given us this good health so that we continuously remember and able to fulfill our commitment to You. Ibadah only to YOU. But we human always seems to forget our final destiny.

This morning, as early as 5.00am, I received an sms from my husband (who was in Singapore) that K.Anum has passed away at 2.50am. Even though I was not that close to her, but her sight came flashing in me. I can still remember her friendly smile as she walk pass my house to go to surau. Alhamdulillah, she has just completed her commitment to Allah, by fulfilling the 5th rukun by going to Hajj last season. It was a week ordeal for her. Saturday (26th) she was still looking healthy despite some complaint about a pain in the stomach, Saturday (27thth) fell sick, but still able to communicare with neighbours, Monday(28th) fell coma, Monday(5th) stops her journey on this world and began a new life in alam barzakh.

Her daughter was crying throughout, sitting beside her breathless body all the time as visitors make round to pay our last respect to her, her son was the imam for the last prayer for her .... When I visited her, I pray to Allah, if her journey on this earth is coming to a full stop, please take her in peace and iman, but if her journey here is still a long way to go, please make her recover so that she can continuosly perform ibadah towards the Creator. May my prayer answered. May Allah bless her, accept all her ibadah and place her with all mukminin. Alfatihah .....


I was imagining, what if it was me and not her.... am I prepared???????

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Journey back to Shah Alam @Raya 2009

Akhirnya kembali ke rumah setelah lebih seminggu meninggalkan rumah di bandar untuk pulang berhari raya di kampung halaman di sisi ayah bonda dan saudara mara tercinta.

Our journey back to Shah Alam began at 8.15 am, Saturday, 26 September 2009, when we last waved to my parents, mak & bapak. It was a touching moment. Bapak easily drop his golden tears, mak as usual, strong but looking a bit sad. We were the last group to leave the house (we were the first group to arrive in Kg Pertama .... tapi tengah2 tu kat Sg Petani le jugak). It is suppose to be 'sesudah subuh' departure time, hihihi .... that's normal isn't it? At least we did not pass noon.

(1st stop)
We leave early because we plan to have few stops along the way and also to avoid the massive traffic. From the Juru toll, we took the Jawi exit to head to Bagan Serai, our first pit stop. We are here to meet my x-classmate, Noor Adillah Osman. The last time I met her was 9 years ago. Thanks to my husband who has agreed to drive me to my friend's house. Served with nasi lemak and nasi goreng (only about 9.30 am at that time), we had a wonderful chat. But we could not stay long as we still have a very long journey to go. BTW, we just had nasi goreng at mak's house, just imagine what our stomach were saying to us ..... HEY YOU! STOP EATING! .... I'M ALMOST BURST .... tapi orang dah jamu, tak boleh menghampakan.

(2nd stop)
Moving on, we entered Taiping, when my husband suggested that we stop by at Mak Ngah's house to pay her a visit. Unfortunately, after 3 salam, and few knocks on the door, still no answer. According to the neighbour, she must have gone only for a while as the gate is wide ajar. It's ok, it's not in our plan anyway, and Allah knows our nawaitu.

(3rd stop)
Next stop is at Bukit Gantang for some teh tarik and fruits. A short stop as ayah waited in the car, while the girls (Nisa', Atikah & Sabrina) dashed to the toilets and ibu search for teh tarik, milo ais and some fruits. We continued our journey, the girls at the last row were chatting happily (mesti tengah dok sembang pasal cerita Korea ... ntah apa la yg best sangat) ... Hakim as usual keep on pestering Sabrina, making her to shout, scream and all sorts of noise. My simple solution ..."Hakim! Tidur la ....." .... and it was a silence, I turn around to see all four of them were fast asleep. My eyes were also sleepy, and I did not realize when it dozed offff ....... but only a short while.

(4th stop)
Ayah needed to go to the loo, so did Sabrina and Hakim. Next stop was at ...... hmmmm .... cannot recall ... was it Ladang Bikam? but I'm sure it's a Hentian Sebelah (wonder why they named it as such). It was about 1.oo pm. It's not zohor time yet, therefore we decided to proceed to rumah Kak Nah at Rawang and perform our solat at Sg Buluh R&R.

(5th stop)
I've sent SMS to K.Nah asking her whereabout, but no reply. Anyway, without hesitation, we decided to proceed to her Restaurant (ZAMAZ Restaurant at Rawang). When we were about 50km from her restaurant, we receive a call from her, comfirming that she is at the restaurant. We arrived at her restaurant at about 2.00p.m. My stomach made some noise, signalling to be filled. As usual, my menu at the restaurant will be Nasi Goreng Kampung, the three of us (Nisa, Atikah & me) had Nasi Goreng Kampung with telur dadar. Unfortunate for Sabrina as Mak Ngah did not cook her favourite Nasi Ayam, therefore, she resort to Nasi Goreng Ayam. Hakim sulked because he did not get a seat next to me and refused to eat, while Ayah had Mee Rebus after a long chat with Abang Z. It was a GREAT lunch! Thanks K.Nah. We left the restaurant at about 3.10pm.

(6th Stop)
Our next stop is a stop to perform our obligation to the MErciful ALLAH s.w.t. It was at Sg Buluh R&R. Alhamdulillah we manage to get a parking slot despite many cars coming into the rest area. While at the rest area, I made a call to Chu Ton asking her whereabouts. Chu Ton's house is our next stop.

(7th Stop)
From the highway we took the Jalan Duta exit and proceed to Chu Ton's house through DUKE Highway (Duta Ulu KElang Hiway). That was our first time using DUKE and to our surprise it really made our journey shorter and more convenient. We arrive at Chu Ton's house in no time. Chus (Chu Ton & Chu N) has just performed their 'Asr prayer. We had a chat, drinks and some ketupat & rendang and left Chu's house when it was 5.30pm. Again we took DUKE, followed by SPRINT and later proceed to Federal Highway. When in PJ, I received a call from Liza Salleh asking our whereabouts as she was in Shah Alam ...aaahh ... too bad we were not around and we have another pit stop to go (missed the opportunity to meet another x-classmate).

(8th Stop)
In PJ we turn to Jalan 222 to Pak Besaq's house. Going to his house is always a gamble, no calls will be made before going to his house. If he is around, we'll stop. If he is not, we will just continue our journey. Anyway, it is just on our way back to Shah Alam. We are lucky, they were at home. We chat, I helped Mak Besaq to serve us, we had our drinks and excused ourself when it was already 6.30pm.

Alhamdulillah ...... mission accomplished. We have paid our seniors a visit. May Allah grant and bestowed us with Rahmah and accept our little mission as ibadah. Amin.

We finally reached home during the call for Maghrib prayer. Nisa' & Atikah helped out with the 'unloading' job while the males headed to the musolla for Maghrib prayer. We were all 'full' and tired. The journey back to Shah Alam this time took the longest time ever, with the most stops we ever had (Harap2 Nisa' tak menyesal ikut Maksu Ina).

But somehow ... i think i need to reorganize, decorate the house a bit and fill cookies into the cookie jar .... What if someone comes to the house for Raya tomorrow (& the house is a mess) ?????

Monday, September 28, 2009

Ramadhan yang pergi.

Lama sungguh-sungguh tak update blog ni. Tak sempat ... sungguh tak sempat. Entah apa yang membuatkan tak sempat pun tak tahu la .... posa kot ....

Ramadhan has gone. What are the good deeds that we have done during the last Ramadhan. Kids are happy celebrating Eid. So do we, the parents, but deep inside me, I was crying during the last nite of Ramadhan. To me, I have not fully optimise the last Ramadhan for ibadah ila llah. And I do not know whether I will meet another Ramadhan ever again. This might be my last Ramadhan and I did not fill it with enough ibadah. Ya Allah ... Please forgive me.

However, I am still grateful, Alhamdulillah, with the few ibadah that I have performed, I can feel the sweet sensation when performing it. i can feel that i am a better person now. I pray to Allah that I will 'istiqamah' with my ibadah in order to become a good muslimah .... InsyaAllah.

During the last Kuliah Subuh that I listened to at Surau al-Mawaddah, Seksyen 7, Shah Alam, on Friday morning before we hit the road to my Kg Pertama, there are few things that hit me.

Rasullah mengaminkan doa Jibril seperti berikut:
  1. Laknatlah bagi mereka yang tidak mengucapkan selawat ketika nama nabi Muhammad s.a.w disebutkan.
  2. Laknatlah bagi mereka yang keluar dari Ramadhan tanpa mendapat pengampunan dari Allah.
  3. Laknatlah bagi mereka yang berkesempatan hidup bersama kedua ibubapa tetapi tidak berjasa kepada mereka malah menyakiti (hati) mereka.
Ya Allah, semoga aku terlepas dari laknat Allah, Rasul dan Malaikat. Semoga aku tidak termasuk dalam golongan ini.

I conveyed these few 'ilm that I know to my children. They asked about No.2, "How do we know that Allah has forgave us?" ...... Do you have an answer for this? Only ALLAH knows, we can only pray and pray that we were forgiven. I really hope that my kids will grow up to be good muslims, mukmin and muttaqin ............ Amin.

Pen off now ..........

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Healthy ....

Health and healthy .... a grateful gift from Allah that we used to take for granted or forget to say 'thanks' for it. How many of us used to say 'thanks to Allah' for this great gift. Only when we are sick we will call Allah for help. How ungrateful we are as the caliph on His planet.

But the Loving Allah, does not want his believer to go astray with the health He gave for so long. He reminded us of our duty to remember Him at all times and day. He test us with a little sickness, so that we remember to say 'Ya Allah ......'.


"Ya Allah telah kau kurniakan kami kesihatan yang berpanjangan, kini kau uji kami dengan sedikit kesakitan. Ampuni lah kami kerana telah lalai dari mengingatiMu. Berilah kami dan keluarga kami kesihatan yang baik agar dapat kami terus beramal dan mengingatiMu. Amin."


Monday, August 3, 2009

Kurangkan Bicara

Ku petik ayat dari buku "Jangan Bersedih" karya Dr Aidh Bin Abdullah Al-Qarni,

"Jauhilah banyak membantah dan banyak mengkritik. Hal itu akan membuat ketenangan hatimu hilang dan membuat wajahmu tidak baik. Ucapkanlah kalimah yang sopan dan penuh cinta jika kamu ingin menarik hati dan jiwa orang lain."

Beberapa potong ayat ini jika dibaca sepintas lalu tidak akan membawa makna sebaliknya mungkin menyebabkan kita berkata, "dah tu, takkan tak boleh kritik kot. nak diam je ... mana boleh tahan macam ni".

Tapi itulah hakikatnya, bait-bait ayat ini sebenarnya menuntut kita untuk tingkatkan kesabaran kita apabila berlaku sebarang perselisihan, argument, dan tidak perlu juga kita berkata-kata jika hanya untuk memuaskan hati orang.

Rumusan dari pembacaan ringkas ini: 1) perlu tingkatkan kesabaran, 2) jangan cuba untuk memuaskan hati orang (membodek la tu...) dan 3) kurangkan bersuara.

Tapi mampukah hati ini menangkis godaan syaitan untuk mengeruhkan apa jua hubungan yang baik .... mampukah hati ini meningkatkan kesabaran 'ala kulli hal?

Berusaha .... lah ....................

Friday, July 31, 2009

Sekeping Senangin dan semangkuk sotong goreng ....

Emmmm ... berkobar-kobar aku nak balik lunch hari ni sebab dah masak something simple but delicious (at least for my taste).

I made a 'Senangin Masak Lemak Merah' and just the 'Fried Squid with Potato'. Sounds delicious? I am, because I am starving at the moment. (Waiting for the crowd of the Friday prayers to disperse before going back for lunch).

I am all ready to go home for lunch. I purposely pick this time (2pm) to go back so that I could send Atikah to school at the same time. Luckily, I called before going back. I called to ask whether there is any parking space for me ... yup! said Atikah. She sounds shaken when I said that I am going home. Hesitating she told me that THERE WAS NOTHING LEFT for me to eat except the plain rice. Few of her friends came over and they had lunch together ......

Well, itu lah rezeki namanya. Teringat kuliah maghrib di surau few weeks back, "Milik kita hanyalah apa yang kita pakai, dan apa yang kita makan". True ... that senangin is supposed to be my lunch (theoretically) but since it was not meant for me (bukan rezeki), I cannot eat it.

Am I angry? Why must I? I must believe in qadha' and qadar' - remember Rukun Iman? This may look so simple but it's the simple test that Allah has put on me, to test whether I am going to redha over this small test or get furious for not being able to eat the ikan senangin. In fact, I should feel happy and blessed because I have provided food for few schoolchildren (children ke? - belasah je lah) to eat before they go for school - hopefully they are there for 'fi sabilillah'.

In normal circumstances, the ikan senangin will normally left untouched by anybody during lunch (because my kids do not keen on fish - not a good habit kan!). So, I just put a piece of ikan senangin, more for the flavour, actually (If I know that few of her friends are coming, I would have put more). But today, as it is not meant for me, ikan senangin yang seketul tu, are all eaten by Atikah and friends.

Itulah .... Rezeki.


Hi hi hi .... nasib baik tak ikut jejak langkah ibu yang dalam cerita 'Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup', kalau tak, kahwin dengan anak raja la anakku nanti ............


Monday, July 27, 2009

emmm .... vacation



Alhmdulillah ... tercapai jugak hajatku nak bercuti dengan anak-anak di tempat yang aku suka. I better dont mention the location, i'm not giving free advertisement here. but I really like being here. Really happening! (pinjam istilah budak-budak sekarang).







These are the photos of my children enjoying their time there. Below are the photos of the environment around the place.









I have lots more photos actually, but I lost it while synchronizing my htc to my notebook (sometimes technology cheated on us as well).

Why I like being here so much? Hmmmm ...
#1. the atmosphere. cooling. greenery effect.
#2. the walking path. also cool.
#3. the swimming pool. open 24 hrs. I can have my swim when everbody else asleep (ye lah tu!).
#4. water sport activity.
#5. beach activity, especially during the low tide.

What i don't like about this place:
#1. the accomodation is too small (bcoz we crammed the whole family in one room)
#2. not many choice of food for breakfast
#3. the parking is a bit too far (you'll only get a parking that is within the premise if you're VERY LUCKY).

5 against 3, I think I would want to come here again, InsyaAllah.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Kesian Anakku Ini

Anak lagi ..... dah nak buat macam mana, bila dah jadi ibu, kehidupan berkisar hanyalah pada anak. Anak, anak, anak. Suami pun ada jugak ..... tapi tak naklah story kat sini especially because I know that 'he' reads my blog sometime - when he has time.

Kali ni pasal Sabrina atau nama glamournya, Kak Ngah.

Fetching her from school, from her 'Kem Ibadat Solat Siri-3/2009', she looks a little bit sad. Btw, fetching them from school on Saturdays was not part of my job list, but I got to do it last Saturday as Ayah went 'menebas' at Perangsang Templer Golf Club (PTGC). I think, I must start learning to adapt to it ... as Ayah is beginning to like this 'menebas' thing. (If you're reading my dear, go ahead dear, honestly, but please ... just don't forget to put family first above all like what you're doing now. Honestly, I said honestly. I know how you have dreamt of doing that - 'MENEBAS'. It's better than scuba diving, I think. Arrgh .... why men normally have costly hobby - in terms of time and money. I know not all, and some women do as well).

Coming to Sabrina's .... Sulkily she said, "K.Ngah tak makan apa-apa pun tadi kat sekolah ....". "Kenapa?", I asked, very briefly while steering my car coming out from the parking lot. Hakim is happily moving about in the car - tak boleh duduk diam betulla budak ni.

"Hari ni makan nasi lemak .....", she answered sadly.

"K.Ngah tak bagi tau cikgu ke K.Ngah tak boleh makan nasi lemak?", I asked.

"Tak.", a short answer from her.

"Ibu dah masak ke belum?", she asked with hopes in her eyes. "Dah ...", my answer comforted her.

"Hakim tak nak makan, tadi Hakim makan dua bungkus. Afiq suruh Hakim makan dia punya", Hakim contributing to the conversation. But I know the reason for telling this is to justify to my 'soon to make him eat lunch' act. Okay Hakim, you may skip lunch that Ibu has cooked today.

Let's look at how Sabrina eats that afternoon, after coming back from Kem Ibadah Solat on July, 18th 2009. She was not aware that I was capturing the video, she thought I was just looking at old photos on my HTC. (Maaf, video belum dapat disiarkan, ada sedikit masalah teknikal).



Btw, Sabrina is allergic to protein in egg white, nuts and coconut milk. I pity her as she has limited things to eat. Tapi bumi Allah ni terlalu kaya untuk berfikir sedemikian. Terlalu banyak makanan yang telah dikurniakan, its just limited in the food that we used to eat, actually.

















Sabar my dear (agaknya, sebab tu lah namanya Sabrina- kesabaran kami). Allah mengasihi hambaNya yang bersabar dan redha .....

Friday, July 17, 2009

Cat Dog

Graphics taken from http://sharetv.org/shows/catdog

Have u ever watch that series? Well, my younger kids LOVE it .... it's a stupid and did not make sense at all. How can a cat and a dog be attached together? What an imagination ..... i wonder how the creator of this cartoon series got the idea. Stupid? Shhhh..... But I enjoyed watching it tooo ... well, maybe sometimes .... It's secret ok? Don't tell anybody that I like to watch it ....

Hello! Hello! What are you mumbling about? ................ Yes, I can hear you. You are asking, what the heck am I doing talking about the CatDog? I wanted to actually highlight a different 'catdog', it's about the pepatah Melayu ... Bagai anjing dengan kucing.

What does it mean?? Nak jadi Karam Singh Walia sikit hari ni.

Bagai anjing dengan kucing (It's like a dog and a cat) means two person that cannot meet each other as they will always fight when they are near to each other.

That is what happen to two of my kids: the eldest and the youngest. The second child is the cool type and tries to give in when in a fight (tapi kadang-kadang tu, dia belasah juga adiknya .... aku biarkan je ...., they'll survive).

When I came home from office for lunch today, I can hear Hakim's voice crying even from the gate. I wonder ... What now????? Opening the door was Sabrina, "Ibu! Hakim nangis. Kakak tendang dia". The reporter reporting live from the scene.

My hunger strikes, my blood pressure rose, "Atikah! Kan ibu dah cakap banyak kali jangan melampau sangat dengan adik", I burst out.

"Hakim tu yang menyakitkan hati. Ejek-ejek orang. Atikah tak sengaja. Bukan nak buat kuat, tapi dia hadang, tu yang kena", defended Atikah, while Hakim is crying out loud.

"Dah! Hakim, berhenti nangis. Lain kali jangan sakitkan hati orang", I blurted again.

Wahhh .... Not easy maa.... to become a referee. I must be fair. I don't want them to think that I am biased, especially Atikah who always thought that i favor the younger ones compared to her. That's not true my dear ... I love all of you equally.


Witnessing their LOVE!

Atikah, just look at the eyes of your brother and sister .... they are still little girl and boy ... be patient with them. I know you can tolerate with them. Hakim is a boy ... born to be naughty.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Anak-anak

Anak-anak adalah anugerah Allah yang tidak ternilai. Kurniaan teristimewa yang Allah berikan kepada pasangan suami isteri. Pelengkap sebuah kehidupan berkeluarga. Tapi ..... ia tidak diberikan percuma, ia datang bersama sebuah AMANAH dan TANGGUNGJAWAB. Apakah mampu aku melaksanakannya???

Jewels of my heart



I have always asked myself,
... am I a good mother?
... did I fulfill my responsibility as required?
... am I there when they needed me?
... did I do anything wrong in raising them to become Khalifah of Allah?

My dear children, remember this ...

... I might not be the best mom in the world, but I love all of you the most in the whole world, no love could ever compared to the love that I have for all of you.

... I might sometimes be a little hard, but I did all this because my love for you. Wanting to see all of you become khalifah that Allah has always wants us to be.

... I might sometimes be over protactive, but my love for you all has resulted in this. There's a cruel and mean world that you live now.

... I might sometime seems too difficult, too many 'nos' and 'don'ts', but believe me, my love for you is trying to distance you from all the wrongdoing that you did not realize yet.

Please trust me, that, everything I do, I do it for you, because ....
i LOVE YOU!!!

Monday, July 6, 2009

July 6

Dah July 6 .... Half a year gone.
Dah Rejab ..... Ramadhan just round the corner.

Kenapa la selalu rasa kelam kabut. Bila la agaknya nak reda kelam kabut ni.
Dulu PhD disalahkan, tapi PhD dah selesai.
Yang tak selesai hanyalah kelam kabut ni.

I wish I could sit on a breezy beach
stretching my legs on the sandy beach
sitting and watching my kids playing together
just sit .... relaxing
ahhh......... how I wish ...

Ya Allah .... i am so tired
for reasons that I don't know why
is it a respond to the years lived

Ya Allah ... i need strength
My children need me to guide their path
My children need me for love and trust
Can I provide them with all that?

Thursday, June 25, 2009

2 Batang pen dan sebatang 'highlighter' merah jambu ...

Cuba lihat gambar ini betul-betul ......




Apa yang anda nampak?
Betul, 2 batang pen dan sebatang highlighter merah jambu.

What is so significant about these? They are just ordinary stationeries ... used in the office or at schools. Therefore, why write about something that is nothing.

Now, look at the following:


What do you see? Yes, a self-made card, simple but very meaningful .... The pen and highlighter came out from these two cards. One is from Sabrina and the other one is from Hakim (I'm not sure which one). Those are used item but the thought of giving ........

What people normally said? Yes, THE THOUGHTS ARE COUNT.

And for this time, the thoughts of giving 'something' to Ayah as a token on father's day really touched me. Alhamdulillah, those little hearts able to show their appreciation.

As for myself, did I wish 'Happy Father's Day' to Bapak? ............

Bapak, we dearly love you, no wishes can ever describe the love that we have for you .... no gift could ever replace the 'gift' of life that you gave us. All the hardwork, all sacrifices will be rewarded, insyaAllah.

But Bapak rarely at home when we were young. His work requires him to travel along with the train day in, day out. At home today, away again for another 3-4 days. The time we spent with him is very minimum. Bapak does not have much words to say to us when we were young. But I do remember when Bapak used to feed me when I was just a little girl, back in kampung. It will always be a 'One for you, and One for me', one for my mouth, and for bapak's. Hmmmmm ..... sweet memory.

When I was in standard 6, mak when to perform the Hajj, Bapak did not go because he has to look after us. That was when Bapak tried to accomodate me, just to please me who really cried my eyes out when Mak left at the airport, Bapak tried to fulfill whatever that I requested. He bought a colour TV (quite new in the market at that time), a washing machine (Mak refused to have one because cannot see the importance), and the best thing is, Bapak send me to school and fetch me from school everyday (normally I took the school bus). Spoiled am I? Don't think so.

One other thing I remember about Bapak is, he will wash my school shoes if I did not do it ......


Bapak, at 76

Semoga Allah berikan kesihatan yang baik untuk bapak meneruskan kehidupan ini dan membolehkan bapak terus tingkatkan ibadat terhadapNYA. Semoga Bapak sentiasa dalam peliharaan dan keberkatanNYA.

Kami sayang Bapak!!!!



WANITA

I got the following from an email from a group that I joined. 19 keistimewaan wanita. Hmmm.... menarik. Of course I would love to read and know, what is it so special about female. YES! Allah has created the mankind, male and female, both to compliment each other. Allah has created female so special that it requires full protection - we are required to cover ourselves, hijab, not to go out by ourselves, always obey our protector (Father or husband) as long as they are in the right path. Itulah antaranya keistimewaan wanita, at least, as I can see it.

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19 KEISTIMEWAAN WANITA


1. Doa wanita itu lebih makbul daripada lelaki kerana sifat penyayang yang lebih kuat daripada lelaki. Ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah SAW akan hal tersebut, jawab baginda , " Ibu lebih penyayang daripada bapa dan doa orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia."

2. Wanita yang solehah (baik) itu lebih baik daripada 1000 lelaki yang soleh.

3. Barangsiapa yang menggembirakan anak perempuannya, darjatnya seumpama orang yang sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah .Dan orang yang takutkan
Allah SWT akan diharamkan api neraka ke atas tubuhnya.

4. Wanita yang tinggal bersama anak-anaknya akan tinggal bersama aku (Rasulullah SAW) di dalam syurga.

5. Barangsiapa membawa hadiah (barang makanan dari pasar ke rumah lalu diberikan kepada keluarganya) maka pahalanya seperti melakukan amalan bersedekah.Hendakla h mendahulukan anak perempuan daripada anak lelaki. Maka barangsiapa yang menyukakan anak perempuan seolah-olah dia memerdekakan anak Nabi Ismail.

6. Syurga itu di bawah telapak kaki ibu.

7. Barangsiapa mempunyai tiga anak perempuan atau tiga saudara perempuan atau dua anak perempuan atau dua saudara perempuan lalu dia bersikap ihsan dalam pergaulan dengan mereka dan mendidik mereka dengan penuh rasa takwa serta sikap bertanggungjawab, maka baginya adalah syurga.

8. Apabila memanggil akan dirimu dua orang ibu bapamu, maka jawablah panggilan ibumu terlebih dahulu.

9. Daripada Aisyah r.a." Barangsiapa yang diuji dengan sesuatu daripada anak-anak perempuannya lalu dia berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka mereka akan menjadi penghalang baginya daripada api neraka.

10. Wanita yang taat berkhidmat kepada suaminya akan tertutuplah pintu-pintu neraka dan terbuka pintu-pintu syurga. Masuklah dari mana-mana pun pintu yang dia kehendaki dengan tidak dihisab.

11. Wanita yang taat pada suaminya, maka semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung di udara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan semua beristighfar baginya selama mana dia taat kepada suaminya serta menjaga solat dan puasanya.

12. Aisyah r.a berkata, "Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah, siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita?" Jawab Rasulullah SAW "Suaminya." " Siapa pula berhak terhadap lelaki?" Jawab Rasulullah SAW, "Ibunya."

13. Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa di bulan Ramadhan, memelihara kehormatannya serta kepada suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dikehendaki.

14. Tiap perempuan yang menolong suaminya dalam urusan agama, maka Allah SWT memasukkan dia ke dalam syurga terlebih dahulu daripada suaminya (10,000 tahun).

15. Apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya,maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya. Allah SWT mencatatkan baginya setiap hari dengan 1,000 kebajikan dan menghapuskan darinya 1,000 kejahatan.

16. Apabila seseorang perempuan mulai sakit hendak bersalin, maka Allah SWT mencatatkan baginya pahala orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah.

17. Apabila seseorang perempuan melahirkan anak, keluarlah dia dari dosa-dosa seperti keadaan ibunya melahirkannya.

18. Apabila telah lahir anak lalu disusui, maka bagi ibu itu setiap satu tegukan daripada susunya diberi satu kebajikan.

19. Apabila semalaman seorang ibu tidak tidur dan memelihara anaknya yang sakit, maka Allah SWT memberinya pahala seperti memerdekakan 70 orang hamba dengan ikhlas untuk membela agama Allah SWT.

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But ......................... we have weaknesses. We have fragile heart that can easily broken. We have limited strength that requires assistance. Guys out there, please listen to our soft and fragile heart and feeling.

  • We were told that sometimes men need to go out with friends to have a 'manly' chat with friends. So, do we. We need friends to talk and actualy listen to our feelings (we are so full with emotions). We have a soft heart to be cared for. Would you want to care for it emotionally?
  • We heard men saying that when a woman sulk, 'just leave her alone, she'll be ok in no time'. But do men know that every sulk creates a scar in her soft heart. And that scar can become bigger with frequent ignorant from a man. It disturbs her emotionally.
  • Men would say that they need time for a break, to be with friends, to do things that they like. So, how about woman. We need a time off too. But our problem is, we cannot be away from our family for long. We missed them each minute even at work or school. Togetherness, doing something out of routine is a break for us. We did not ask so much.
To list all, it will be a never ending story.
Above all, Alhamdulillah, I am lucky. My husband:
  • always put the family first above all his interest
  • is very difficult at times but mostly we (kids and myself) are the reasons why
  • is a motivator - but in his own way, you'll realise it only after you have successfully achieved whatever you are working on
  • is a good son
  • insyaAllah, a true muslim

As for me,
as a woman, as a wife,
I seek forgiveness from Allah and seek redha from my husband,
always,
as there is where jannah lies.

wallahua'lam


Friday, June 19, 2009

Report Card Time....

hmmmm..... baru balik dari ambil report card Hakim and Sabrina. Phuh! Letih ... what a long queue. It took me two hours to finish the task(?). I guess they should figure out a more systematic way for the teacher-parents meet like this. Even the teachers are already tired to talk to the parents towards the end of the day. They just hand over the report card, smile and ask us to sign it, answering only reluctantly.

30th june is another session. this time its going to be worst, 2 classes and 2 schools, morning and evening!!! Boleh tak agaknya kalau tak pergi???? Kesian pulak anak2, mesti nak tunjuk talent kan!

Something interesting occured. Guess what the teacher said to me about Hakim? (i dont think you can guess). The class teacher, Cikgu Muhaya said, "Cikgu-cikgu lain pesan, minta saya samapaikan, kalau ibu Ikmal datang, tolong bagi tau kat ibu dia suruh tengok-tengokkan Ikmal." I was quite shocked and full of suspense. What did my boy have done that makes all teachers wishing to say something to me. Berdebar-debar jugak. The teacher continued, " Dia suka khayal dalam kelas, berangan dan buat kerja lambat. Tapi dia sebenarnya bijak. Saya pun macam tak percaya tengok markah dia kali ni. Dua tiga kali saya kira". Inilah kata-kata cikgunya. I'm not kidding. It is still fresh in my mind because I just came back from the school.

Hmmmm ........... apa nak buat ya?

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Hakim kena cucuk

"Ibu! Hakim kena cucuk. Satu kiri dan satu kanan.", jerit Hakim sebaik melangkah masuk ke rumah. Sampai terlupa nak bagi salam.

"Sakit tak?", tanyaku ringkas.

"Tak sakit pun", balas Hakim.

"Tak sakit?", tanyaku tak percaya (memang tak percaya pun).

"Iye, tak sakit. Hakim baca doa", balas Hakim dengan penuh perasaan.

I was smiling and at the same time saying Alhamdulillah. Last night, when he told us that nurses are coming for injection, I was worried, he was always a little bit nervous and never trust people to do something on him. A simple example, he always tries to push my hand aside while I am brushing his teeth. But my husband comforted by saying that he will be ok when with friends. At that time, I was really hoping that my husband is correct.

I remembered during the last 'khatan', because he did not trust us, he did the cleaning on the wounds by himself. He even applied the cream (medicine) on the wound by himself. And also because he did not trust the doctor, he sat up to see what the doctor is doing to him during the incision procedure. That is my boy, Hakim.

On our way up, while on the stairs, I asked Hakim,

"Macam mana boleh jadi tak sakit?".
"Hakim baca doa", jawabnya selamba je.
"Ustazah suruh ke?", tanyaku lagi.
"Tak lah. Hakim yang nak baca sendiri", jawab Hakim lagi, serius.
Aku mula merasa bangga.

"Hakim baca doa apa?", tanya ku, a bit curious.
"Hakim baca doa la, baca zikir banyak-banyak. Baca Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah dan Selawat", balas Hakim dengan confident.

He repeated the same thing that he did during the 'khatan', he was reciting Al-Fatihah over and over throughout the procedure, even the doc was smiling at him.

Alhamdulillah ..... aku bersyukur.

Today is Our Day!!!!

'Today is our day' is the geese that I got from my reading this morning while waiting for 9 am. Why 9 am? It's nothing, just waiting for the course to begin. Dr Aidh al-Qarni in his book, "Don't Be Sad" said that let's make today your day. Make fullest of the day because you might not see tomorrow. Wow! it is almost similar to my earlier posting, talking about time and how we should fill up our time.

According to Dr Aidh, do the best that you can, never delay even a minute to do good things even among human or the Creator. There are times when we take for granted everything that is around us, friends, relatives, siblings, parents, children, spouse ... we thought that we can make over to them tomorrow. Are you sure you are going to see the shed of tomorrow's life?

Ya Allah! I'm aware of this, half of me wanted to do the best, but the other half of me says, just do it later. Ya Allah! I must work hard to be better, to perform the best and never delay any good deeds. Amin ........

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Time passes by ....

Time passes by ...
We are still here

Is today better than yesterday?
What will tomorrow brings us to?

Life is short
Live it to the most

Fill it up with all the good deeds
Fill it up with iman and taqwa

-ummu hakim -

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

My new found hobby

I never knew that I would develop this as a hobby. Previously, I just browse and read. Snapping a photo was never my interest. What changed me? I do not know. I don't have an answer for this. Maybe the years that I have live this life might play a bit of its role .... in other word ... people change ... so does interest.

What is my new hobby?



Jeng ... jeng ... jeng ...











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Cooking? No, its not cooking.



It's taking photo of whatever dish I have cooked. Even my husband realised this and he has to be patient before he can actually say 'Bismillah .....' because I need to take the photo of the food on his plate.



My husband .... ready to nyum! nyum!
Dont forget the doa makan, dear!


It's fun.

For the recipe, please visit my other blog at Koleksi Resepi


Adios!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Sibukssss .....

Terlalu sibuk? Kenapa?

Maybe:-
1) Really, extremely busy.
2) Last minute works.
3) Too many due dates at the same time.
4) Time management.

What is actually the reason for being tooOOO busy?

Yes, I was VERY busy for the past few days. But what was the reason?

Is it No.4? Partly yes, but No.3 is also true.

Hey! What about No.2? Hmmm...... Yes, perhaps a little bit of No.2. ... There you go!..... That is the result of poor time management. Believe it, with proper time management, you can handle the due dates well.

Ahhgg ....This is where I usually failed, TIME MANAGEMENT!

Due to No.2, you have No.3 and that is actually the result of poor No.4 and the outcome of it is No.1.

Therefore, to solve No.3, we must have proper No.4 and zero No.2. For No.1, nobody will escape from it till death comes ..... with proper handling we may reduce the 'really' and 'extremely' ...

REMEMBER!!!! NO LAST MINUTE WORKS ...........

Good Luck! Adios!!!!

Monday, April 27, 2009

PESTA BUKU ANTARABANGSA KUALA LUMPUR 2009

Phew! Berpeluh-peluh walaupun dalam dewan aircond. Bersesak-sesak di celahan ribuan orang. Nak jeling buku, tapi pada masa yang sama perlu pastikan 'rantaian' tak terputus (anak-anak le tu .... he he he). Itu lah serba sedikit yang dapat aku gambarkan tentang Pesta Buku Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur (PBAKL) yang kami kunjungi pada hari Ahad (26 April 2009), yang lepas.

That was our first visit to PBAKL. My husband does not like crowds. We avoid going to places that are crowded with people, etc. Sales, Pasar Ramadhan. That is the reason why we normally do our Hari Raya shopping very early, 1st weekend in Ramadhan. But this time, Ayah gave-in to his children's request. He has agreed to go to PBAKL with hesitation.


We leave the house at about 8.30am. Stop for breakfast at Khulafa', Seksyen 7 (I think we deserve a loyalty card from Khulafa' for being a regular patron!). Start off to KL at about 9am. Before that, I made my kisds recite the doa' to start a journey.
Off we go. We wish to beat the crowd at the PBAKL.

On arriving the Putra Bus station ..... jeng! jeng! jeng! Alamak! Throngs of people were already flooded the area, parking was already difficult to find. Alhamdulillah, we manage to find a shady parking area at the Hentian Putra, for RM3 per entry (btw, my husband and me have our own memories at Hentian Putra ... ehem ehem).


Entering the PWTC, it is already a crawl!! I told my children to stay close to me, especially hakim, who likes to wander on his own. I gave Atikah the responsibility to look after him ( what a difficult task!).

We move from one booth to another, still couldn't find what we are looking for. Ayah is no where in sight. We gathered at a 'peaceful' location and wait for ayah. Ayah eventually turn up and sugggested that we went to another floor. Atikah is looking for books written by Ain Maisarah. Hakim has nothing in particular but hooked on 'Kenapa Kulit Kura-kura berpetak-petak?'. He sulked all the way until I bought him the book. Sabrina, as usual has no demands. We finally found the booth we wanted to find, PTS Publishing, Ana Muslim, Asuh etc. It was almost 12 noon at that time. Each of my kids grabbed few books that they like. Atikah got herself Ain Maisarah's books as she wanted. So did Sabrina. Hakim as usual, will not go without his dinosaur's book. I found a few for myself. We gathered at the entrance. Ayah asked whether the kids want to continue to other floors ... everybody shook their head. Everybody was already tired, and suffocated with oceans of humans in the exhibition hall. So we decided to go back.

Before heading to Shah Alam, ayah decided to treat us at Insaf. Yummy .... I love the ice blended Mango there. All three were fast asleep at the back seat of the car all the way from KL to Shah Alam.

What an experience, let them feel it for themselves and decide whether they would want to go to another Pesta Buku Antarabangsa Kuala Lumpur.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Sepohon Pokok Kurma








"Jadilah seperti sepohon pokok kurma, yang jauh dari kejelekan dan tinggi tak terjangkau oleh kejahatan. Bila dilempar dengan batu, ia menggugurkan buahnya; sentiasa hijau, baik di musim dingin mahupun di musim panas; lagi banyak manafaatnya." (Petikan dari buku Jangan Bersedih: Jadilah Wanita Yang Paling Bahagia", tulisan Dr Aidh Abdullah al-Qarni, terjemahan Muhammad Huzaifah. ms. 63).



Makanan Istimewa Ini.

(dipetik dari website http://www.palmwonders.com/content/about-dates/)

Dates nutrition

A 100 gram portion of fresh dates is a premium source of vitamin C. Since dates contain relatively little water, they do not become much more concentrated upon drying, although the vitamin C disappears in the process. Each date provides about 20 calories, and is a good source of carbohydrate, fibre, and potassium, also providing some calcium and iron along with other vitamins and minerals in smaller amounts. Dates do not have significant amounts of fat, cholesterol, protein, or sodium. Here are some examples of the nutrition of some type of dates:

Khalas (100g):
82.9 g sugar
2.9 mg vitamin C
1.59 % protein
0.93 % fat
Sukkari (100g):
66.7 g sugar
80 u vitamin A
2.9 mg vitamin C
1.32 % protein
1.73 % fat
Segae (100g):
79.4 g sugar
2.4 g vitamin C
2.07 % protein
0.96 % fat

Use of dates and other palm tree products

Dates are an important food for travelers in desert or in the mountains because they provide them with a complete nutritious meal (see the above nutrition fact of dates). Beside that, dates are easy to carry and no cooking is needed to prepare them for eating because dates are often eaten out-of-hand.

Dates can also be used for cooking. They can be chopped and used in a range of sweet such as cakes and other dessert dishes and other savory dishes (see examples of our recipes).

Dates are also processed into paste and date syrup called 'dibs' which most likely are used in some recipes.

Recent innovations include chocolate-covered dates and date juice.

Date palm leaves are used for making huts, mats, screens, baskets, brooms, large hats, and fans.

Palmwonders will try in the future to provide some of these products to the online customers if there were a good demand for them.

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Menjadi Wanita Paling anggun Di Dunia

Anggunkah aku?

Bagaimana untuk kelihatan anggun? ... Berbelanja, berhias?
Dimata siapakah aku ingin kelihatan anggun? ... Suami? Rakan sekerja? Orang awam?

Anggun biarlah dimata ar-Rabb .... itu yang menjadi idaman wanita solehah. Anggunkah aku?

"Dengan akhlak anda, anda lebih harum dari minyak wangi; dengan sikap tawaddhu' anda, anda lebih tinggi dari purnama. Dan dengan cinta anda, anda lebih segar daripada rintik gerimis. oleh itu peliharalah kecantikan anda dengan keimanan, keredhaan dengan kepuasan, dan kehormatan dengan hijab yang menutup aurat." (petikan dari buku "Jangan Bersedih: Jadilah Wanita Yang Paling Bahagia" tulisan Dr Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni, terjemahan Muhamad Huzaifah, ms. 59).

- tawaddhu'
- keimanan
- keredhaan
- kehormatan

Monday, April 6, 2009

Rasa Nak Menulis

Hari ni 5 April. My last entry was 16 January .... lama betul tak update blog ni. Sebab tu nak invite orang visit blog ni pun rasa malu. It's better that way, I guess. Tapi hari ni rasa macam nak menulis, walaupun sikit.

Aku mulakan bicara kali ini dengan lafaz ALHAMDULILLAH ........... kesyukuran yang tiada nilainya aku panjatkan pada yang Maha Esa, lagi Maha Pemurah, kerana pada 24hb Mac 2009 yang lalu, pada lebih kurang pukul 4.50pm, sekumpulan panel yang terdiri dari Prof Datuk Dr Zalizan Mohd Jelas (Pengerusi), Prof Datuk Dr Halimah Badiozaman (Pemeriksa Dalaman), Prof Madya Dr Abdul Rahman Ahmad (Pemeriksa Luar) dan Prof Dr Tengku Mohd Tengku Sembok, telah sebulat suara bersetuju meluluskan viva ku, sekaligus bersetuju untuk aku dianugerahkan IJAZAH DOKTOR FALSAFAH dengan sedikit pembetulan. Akhirnya, perjuangan tiba jua ke penghujungnya. Tidak lain, semuanya dengan izinMu ya Allah.


Ya Allah! Sesungguhnya aku malu padaMu, aku hamba yang banyak melakukan dosa ini, hamba yang sering lalai dari mengingatiMu ini, masih kau berikan habuan dunia seiring permohonanku. Ampunilah aku Ya Allah. Semoga habuan dunia ini akan lebih mendekatkan aku padaMu, bukan sebaliknya. Kau peliharalah hati ini dari perasaan riak dan bangga diri, kau peliharalah aku dari kesesatan. PadaMu Ya Allah aku merayu.


Kejayaan kecil ini tidak akan dapat membawaku ke syurgaMu sekiranya tidak diiringi dengan keinsafan atas nikmat kurniaanMU, sekiranya tidak disertakan dengan amalan yang berterusan terhadap kebaikan dan kebajikan ummah. Semoga kau berikan aku kekuatan untuk menangkis perasaan mazmumah yang sering ditup syaitan yang sentiasa inginkan hambaMu berpaling dari mengingatiMu.

Aku berazam untuk memperbanyakkan kecenderungan kearah ukhrawi dalam kehidupan seharianku.

Kepada sahabat-sahabat yang masih dalam pertarungan ini (kalau ada yang membaca), PhD bukan suatu noktah dalam pencarian ilmu, sebaliknya, ianya satu permulaan kerana ia membuatkan kita sedar kedangkalan ilmu yang kita ada kini. Ilmu bukan hanya untuk kehidupan dunia, tetapi biarlah ia dapat membantu kita dalam kehidupan yang kekal abadi nanti. Teruskan perjuangan, BIAR REBAH, BIAR BERPAPAH, MENGALAH JANGAN SEKALI. Semoga kita semua beroleh kejayaan yang diredhaiNYA.

wallahua'lam.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Palestine




Bila menonton di kaca TV, membaca di laman web tentang kekejaman Israel terhadap rakyat Palestine, tak tahu apa yang nak diucapkan. Geram! Marah! Benci! Tapi apa lah yang mampu dilakukan .... selemah-lemah iman adalah membencinya, sekecil-kecil sumbangan adalah mendoakannya.




Ya Allah, kau peliharalah saudara-saudara kami di bumi Palestine, berikan kekuatan rohani dan jasmani kepada pejuang-pejuang yang mempertahankan tanah air mereka dan Masjidil Aqsa. Kurniakanlah kemenangan kepada mereka, Ya Allah. Amin ya Rabbal A'lamin.

Semoga sumbangan-sumbangan kecil yang kami lakukan diterima olehMu ya Allah.


Bercakap pasal sumbangan, anak-anakku kini ZERO saving. Masing2 mengeluarkan kesemua wang di dalam tabung untuk dimasukkan ke dalam Tabung Palestine. Alhamdulillah. Mudah2an semangat untuk berderma dan membantu orang yang dalam kesusahan ini akan terus kekal dalam jiwa-jiwa mereka.


Actually, start dengan Sabrina. Bila ayah tanya siapa nak bagi derma kat orang Palestine, kedua-dua Hakim and Sabrina berlari ke atas ambil tabung masing-masing. Mula Hakim masukkan duit. Lepas tu Sabrina tonggengkan tabung dia dan bagitahu ayah, dia nak bagi semua duit dia. Dua tiga kali juga husband aku tanya Sabrina, are you sure? Dia sikit pun tak berganjak. Then, Hakim followed her. Rupa2nya, Hakim ni ada banyak duit yang tersorok. Dia simpan di beberapa location. The best part is he remembers where he put his money. Semua duitnya juga dimasukkan ke dalam tabung. Bila kakak balik sekolah, she did the same. Alhamdulillah. in total, duit-duit syilling diorang tu adalah dalam +-RM70, duit kertas tak kira le pulak.


How do we know +-RM70? Bila buka tabung derma, tabung derma ayah je yang ada duit syiling. Heran orang surau jadinya, mana la datangnya duit syiling banyak-banyak ni, itulah ANAK AYAH!




Friday, January 2, 2009

It's New Year!

Salam.

New Year .... 1430 atau 2009? Apa kesannya pada kita? Apa gunanya dengan meraikannya beria-ia ... bunga api, konsert yang melalaikan ... mengapa masih berada di tahap jahiliah? Kita sepatutnya memberikan pengisian yang lebih ke arah penghambaan diri pada Maha Pencipta ... maklum la ... umur pun semakin kurang.

Setiap hari adalah hari yang baru, dan sepatutnya setiap hari baru adalah hari yang baik dari sebelumnya. Tapi bagaimana dengan kita? Seeloknya, setiap malam kita bermuhasabah diri, dan berazam untuk memperbaiki diri keesokan harinya. Kenapa berazam setiap hari??? Kerana belum tentu kita diberikan hayat tahun hadapannya.

Tapi lumrah manusia .... L U P A ... kita alpa dan lalai dengan keseronokan dunia.

Ya Allah ...Moga hari-hariku akan jadi lebih baik dari sebelumnya .........

wallahua'lam