Friday, July 31, 2009

Sekeping Senangin dan semangkuk sotong goreng ....

Emmmm ... berkobar-kobar aku nak balik lunch hari ni sebab dah masak something simple but delicious (at least for my taste).

I made a 'Senangin Masak Lemak Merah' and just the 'Fried Squid with Potato'. Sounds delicious? I am, because I am starving at the moment. (Waiting for the crowd of the Friday prayers to disperse before going back for lunch).

I am all ready to go home for lunch. I purposely pick this time (2pm) to go back so that I could send Atikah to school at the same time. Luckily, I called before going back. I called to ask whether there is any parking space for me ... yup! said Atikah. She sounds shaken when I said that I am going home. Hesitating she told me that THERE WAS NOTHING LEFT for me to eat except the plain rice. Few of her friends came over and they had lunch together ......

Well, itu lah rezeki namanya. Teringat kuliah maghrib di surau few weeks back, "Milik kita hanyalah apa yang kita pakai, dan apa yang kita makan". True ... that senangin is supposed to be my lunch (theoretically) but since it was not meant for me (bukan rezeki), I cannot eat it.

Am I angry? Why must I? I must believe in qadha' and qadar' - remember Rukun Iman? This may look so simple but it's the simple test that Allah has put on me, to test whether I am going to redha over this small test or get furious for not being able to eat the ikan senangin. In fact, I should feel happy and blessed because I have provided food for few schoolchildren (children ke? - belasah je lah) to eat before they go for school - hopefully they are there for 'fi sabilillah'.

In normal circumstances, the ikan senangin will normally left untouched by anybody during lunch (because my kids do not keen on fish - not a good habit kan!). So, I just put a piece of ikan senangin, more for the flavour, actually (If I know that few of her friends are coming, I would have put more). But today, as it is not meant for me, ikan senangin yang seketul tu, are all eaten by Atikah and friends.

Itulah .... Rezeki.

Hi hi hi .... nasib baik tak ikut jejak langkah ibu yang dalam cerita 'Batu Belah Batu Bertangkup', kalau tak, kahwin dengan anak raja la anakku nanti ............

Monday, July 27, 2009

emmm .... vacation

Alhmdulillah ... tercapai jugak hajatku nak bercuti dengan anak-anak di tempat yang aku suka. I better dont mention the location, i'm not giving free advertisement here. but I really like being here. Really happening! (pinjam istilah budak-budak sekarang).

These are the photos of my children enjoying their time there. Below are the photos of the environment around the place.

I have lots more photos actually, but I lost it while synchronizing my htc to my notebook (sometimes technology cheated on us as well).

Why I like being here so much? Hmmmm ...
#1. the atmosphere. cooling. greenery effect.
#2. the walking path. also cool.
#3. the swimming pool. open 24 hrs. I can have my swim when everbody else asleep (ye lah tu!).
#4. water sport activity.
#5. beach activity, especially during the low tide.

What i don't like about this place:
#1. the accomodation is too small (bcoz we crammed the whole family in one room)
#2. not many choice of food for breakfast
#3. the parking is a bit too far (you'll only get a parking that is within the premise if you're VERY LUCKY).

5 against 3, I think I would want to come here again, InsyaAllah.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Kesian Anakku Ini

Anak lagi ..... dah nak buat macam mana, bila dah jadi ibu, kehidupan berkisar hanyalah pada anak. Anak, anak, anak. Suami pun ada jugak ..... tapi tak naklah story kat sini especially because I know that 'he' reads my blog sometime - when he has time.

Kali ni pasal Sabrina atau nama glamournya, Kak Ngah.

Fetching her from school, from her 'Kem Ibadat Solat Siri-3/2009', she looks a little bit sad. Btw, fetching them from school on Saturdays was not part of my job list, but I got to do it last Saturday as Ayah went 'menebas' at Perangsang Templer Golf Club (PTGC). I think, I must start learning to adapt to it ... as Ayah is beginning to like this 'menebas' thing. (If you're reading my dear, go ahead dear, honestly, but please ... just don't forget to put family first above all like what you're doing now. Honestly, I said honestly. I know how you have dreamt of doing that - 'MENEBAS'. It's better than scuba diving, I think. Arrgh .... why men normally have costly hobby - in terms of time and money. I know not all, and some women do as well).

Coming to Sabrina's .... Sulkily she said, "K.Ngah tak makan apa-apa pun tadi kat sekolah ....". "Kenapa?", I asked, very briefly while steering my car coming out from the parking lot. Hakim is happily moving about in the car - tak boleh duduk diam betulla budak ni.

"Hari ni makan nasi lemak .....", she answered sadly.

"K.Ngah tak bagi tau cikgu ke K.Ngah tak boleh makan nasi lemak?", I asked.

"Tak.", a short answer from her.

"Ibu dah masak ke belum?", she asked with hopes in her eyes. "Dah ...", my answer comforted her.

"Hakim tak nak makan, tadi Hakim makan dua bungkus. Afiq suruh Hakim makan dia punya", Hakim contributing to the conversation. But I know the reason for telling this is to justify to my 'soon to make him eat lunch' act. Okay Hakim, you may skip lunch that Ibu has cooked today.

Let's look at how Sabrina eats that afternoon, after coming back from Kem Ibadah Solat on July, 18th 2009. She was not aware that I was capturing the video, she thought I was just looking at old photos on my HTC. (Maaf, video belum dapat disiarkan, ada sedikit masalah teknikal).

Btw, Sabrina is allergic to protein in egg white, nuts and coconut milk. I pity her as she has limited things to eat. Tapi bumi Allah ni terlalu kaya untuk berfikir sedemikian. Terlalu banyak makanan yang telah dikurniakan, its just limited in the food that we used to eat, actually.

Sabar my dear (agaknya, sebab tu lah namanya Sabrina- kesabaran kami). Allah mengasihi hambaNya yang bersabar dan redha .....

Friday, July 17, 2009

Cat Dog

Graphics taken from

Have u ever watch that series? Well, my younger kids LOVE it .... it's a stupid and did not make sense at all. How can a cat and a dog be attached together? What an imagination ..... i wonder how the creator of this cartoon series got the idea. Stupid? Shhhh..... But I enjoyed watching it tooo ... well, maybe sometimes .... It's secret ok? Don't tell anybody that I like to watch it ....

Hello! Hello! What are you mumbling about? ................ Yes, I can hear you. You are asking, what the heck am I doing talking about the CatDog? I wanted to actually highlight a different 'catdog', it's about the pepatah Melayu ... Bagai anjing dengan kucing.

What does it mean?? Nak jadi Karam Singh Walia sikit hari ni.

Bagai anjing dengan kucing (It's like a dog and a cat) means two person that cannot meet each other as they will always fight when they are near to each other.

That is what happen to two of my kids: the eldest and the youngest. The second child is the cool type and tries to give in when in a fight (tapi kadang-kadang tu, dia belasah juga adiknya .... aku biarkan je ...., they'll survive).

When I came home from office for lunch today, I can hear Hakim's voice crying even from the gate. I wonder ... What now????? Opening the door was Sabrina, "Ibu! Hakim nangis. Kakak tendang dia". The reporter reporting live from the scene.

My hunger strikes, my blood pressure rose, "Atikah! Kan ibu dah cakap banyak kali jangan melampau sangat dengan adik", I burst out.

"Hakim tu yang menyakitkan hati. Ejek-ejek orang. Atikah tak sengaja. Bukan nak buat kuat, tapi dia hadang, tu yang kena", defended Atikah, while Hakim is crying out loud.

"Dah! Hakim, berhenti nangis. Lain kali jangan sakitkan hati orang", I blurted again.

Wahhh .... Not easy maa.... to become a referee. I must be fair. I don't want them to think that I am biased, especially Atikah who always thought that i favor the younger ones compared to her. That's not true my dear ... I love all of you equally.

Witnessing their LOVE!

Atikah, just look at the eyes of your brother and sister .... they are still little girl and boy ... be patient with them. I know you can tolerate with them. Hakim is a boy ... born to be naughty.

Monday, July 13, 2009


Anak-anak adalah anugerah Allah yang tidak ternilai. Kurniaan teristimewa yang Allah berikan kepada pasangan suami isteri. Pelengkap sebuah kehidupan berkeluarga. Tapi ..... ia tidak diberikan percuma, ia datang bersama sebuah AMANAH dan TANGGUNGJAWAB. Apakah mampu aku melaksanakannya???

Jewels of my heart

I have always asked myself,
... am I a good mother?
... did I fulfill my responsibility as required?
... am I there when they needed me?
... did I do anything wrong in raising them to become Khalifah of Allah?

My dear children, remember this ...

... I might not be the best mom in the world, but I love all of you the most in the whole world, no love could ever compared to the love that I have for all of you.

... I might sometimes be a little hard, but I did all this because my love for you. Wanting to see all of you become khalifah that Allah has always wants us to be.

... I might sometimes be over protactive, but my love for you all has resulted in this. There's a cruel and mean world that you live now.

... I might sometime seems too difficult, too many 'nos' and 'don'ts', but believe me, my love for you is trying to distance you from all the wrongdoing that you did not realize yet.

Please trust me, that, everything I do, I do it for you, because ....

Monday, July 6, 2009

July 6

Dah July 6 .... Half a year gone.
Dah Rejab ..... Ramadhan just round the corner.

Kenapa la selalu rasa kelam kabut. Bila la agaknya nak reda kelam kabut ni.
Dulu PhD disalahkan, tapi PhD dah selesai.
Yang tak selesai hanyalah kelam kabut ni.

I wish I could sit on a breezy beach
stretching my legs on the sandy beach
sitting and watching my kids playing together
just sit .... relaxing
ahhh......... how I wish ...

Ya Allah .... i am so tired
for reasons that I don't know why
is it a respond to the years lived

Ya Allah ... i need strength
My children need me to guide their path
My children need me for love and trust
Can I provide them with all that?