Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Rindu ....

Rindu
Rindu yang tak terperi
Pada blog yang semakin dipinggiri
Ini lah akibat masa tidak berjaya dikuasai
Atau ... disebabkan ketamakan diri

Niat dihati nak bersajak ... tapi tak sempat nak perah otak untuk mengarang. Sebabnya ... mengejar masa. Ahh... alasan yang tak menasabah .... sebenarnya kita sering kesuntukan masa mungkin kerana kelalaian diri dalam menguasai masa atau kita terlalu tamak untuk melakukan segalanya ... kena fikir lagi ... tapi again, tak sempat nak fikir yang mana satu betul sebab tak ada masa. Again, alasan yang tak menasabah.

Tapi .... yang tak tipu, adalah rasa rindu ini untuk mencoretkan bait-bait ayat di ruang ini. Bagaikan ada satu keseronokan apabila meluahkan segalanya di sini. Tak kisahlah samada ada yang membaca atau pun tidak, yang penting MENULIS.

Berhari-hari (sejak balik dari cuti ni la ...) aku 'log on' ke blogspot ni, niat di hati nak tulis sesuatu, tapi jeling je pada mimize window kat bawah tu sebab tak sempat nak mengarang.

Hari ni, bila jam dah menunjukkan 5.05pm, tanpa melengahkan masa, aku pun terus ke sini untuk mencoret bait-bait ayat sekadar melepaskan kerinduan pada blog yang tidak bersuara ini. Kenapa 5.05pm? Yelah ... after office hour, konon-konon tak la rasa guilty sangat berblog ...tapi opsss ... is my 8 hours work for today fulfilled?????? Arghh ..... got to continue my work .... bye bye ta tat tit tit tut tut ............

Will come again, has a lot to write because there are so many happenings lately.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Cuti Cuti Cuti

Yes, it's now the semester break. Really a break. Kids were with their grandmas for two weeks almost two weeks. 7 days in Kg Pertama, 5 days in Sg Petani. It's the best time to reunite them and get closer to their grand parents, and cousins too. They enjoyed their stay, but they missed home. How do I know that they missed home, everyone dissappear to their own area and favorite stuff the minute we reached home.

While the kids gone, I fulfilled my time with reading articles. Tapi tak ada idea nak mengarang. NExt, followed husband to a stay at the Le Meridien KL, for his meeting (tumpang sekaki je...). The best part was, while he was busy withthe meeting, I busied myself with some 'lone ranger' shopping at Jalan TAR and spend most of my time in SOGO. (Terasa macam zaman bujang dolu2 le pulak..... I guess we need that time to ourself, sometime). Night, wandering at MidValley with hubby, followed by wandering in KLCC the following night. WOW! bestnya ............

However, Saturday, 5th Dec, hubby got a call from neighbours about the demise of our x-neighbour, Rosli, K.Su's husband, who died suddenly at a restaurant in Malacca. He was only 47 years old. Subhanallah ... as promised ... ajal tidak akan berganjak walau sesaat. It was a sudden death, really a shocked to K.Su. With the news, we need to check-out early Sunday morning as hubby is the 'tukang mandi jenazah' - fardhu kifayah. I was there, attended the funeral service. Poor K.Su, she fainted few times. Ini ujian Allah yang perlu dilalui oleh setiap insan. I do not want to imagine if it happens to me.

Thursday, 1oth December, its a 'balik kg' cum Central Spectrum Family Day in Penang. We stayed at the Bayview Resort. The greatest moment was to be on the jet-ski with my husband. It's a FANTASTIC experience. Will do it again.

This weekend, will be in CAmeron Highland with Hj Azmi's family. And will be concluding the 2009 with another visit to Avillion. Catch up later ..............

Nak balik tengok bola Live, Msia vs Vietnam, in the Sea Games..... aku ni ada la sikit2 jiwa bola. hihihi

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Sabar dan Sakit

It has been quite some time from my last posting. Urgh..... dozens of things happened. Too busy with classes, grading test papers (which complete only after the final exam!), fell sick and admitted to a medical center, post fever + fatigue due to confirmed thalassemic trait reaction, grading exam papers, students final year project, and, and ....... to list all, it will be an endless list.

Yes, I fell sick (fever actually) and was admitted to a medical Center in Shah Alam for six days. Actually it began on Saturday (31st October), I started to feel chilled while coaching my kids doing revision for their year end exam. I took PCM, and was Ok. But when night came, the fever recur and I was trembling, shaking very badly, I felt cold, even the thickest blanket cannot make the cold dissapear. My husband had to sacrifice by turning off the aircond and the fan, but I was still trembling. Early in the morning, I was Ok. When mak called from Abang Man's house telling that she's stopping by at my house for lunch before proceeding back to kampung, I pull the strength to cook for them (sempat jugak buat nasi ikan dan dalca, kerabu tomato, ikan cencaru belah belakang and salad, hmmm....not bad for a sick person). That night my fever worsen. To make the story short, got MC on Monday, and the condition was deteriorating. I started to vomit and lay flat, shaking and shivering from time to time. At about 10am, my husband called from the office telling that he's coming back to send me to the hospital. I was relieved. I wanted to go to the clinic but I just couldn't drive as I was shaking and shivering. Initially I thought of asking any of my colleagues to take me to the clinic, but alhamdulillah, my husband was coming back.

At the hospital, doctor advised to be admitted, which I readily agree as I was soooo tired. There I was for 6 days. Followed by another 4 days of MC, I was away from the office for 2 weeks!!!! (just imagine the amount of work that is waiting for me). And now, Alhamdulillah, after four weeks, i am myself again, despite some giddiness at times.

Quoting from a chapter of a book titled "Penenang Jiwa: Pengubatan dan Rawatan" by Imam Al-Ghazali, translated by Mukashafah Al-Qulub (a nickname, I guest?):

"Barangsiapa ingin selamat daripada azab Allah, mendapatkan pahala dan rahmatNya dan masuk syurgaNya, hendaklah dia menahan nafsu daripada segala keinginan dunia, disamping sabar atas segala kesulitan dan musibahnya. Allah menyukai orang-orang yang sabar." (ms 11)

and a Hadis, Rasulallah bersabda,

"Allah telah berkata, barangsiapa yang ditimpa bencana, lalu dia mohon perlindungan daripadaKu, pasti Aku memberinya sebelum dia meminta. Dan barangsiapa ditimpa bencana, lalu dia meminta perlindungan kepada makhluk, pasti Ku tutup semua pintu langit bagiNya." (ms 11)

and another Hadis, Rasullallah bersabda,

"Barangsiapa sakit semalam, dia sabar dan reda kepada Allah, maka bersih daripada dosa bagaikan ketika dia lahir dari perut ibunya. Jika engkau sakit, jangan segera meminta sembuh." (ms 11).

Aku redha dengan ujian Allah yang kecil ini setelah diberikanNya nikmat kesihatan yang begitu panjang sehingga kita hampir lupa untuk bersyukur kepadaNya. Ampunilah hambaMu ini, Ya Allah, Ya Rabbal 'alamin.